My below post is about something which we all are facing today in this competitive world but knowingly or unknowingly we are not ready to accept.
I realized that in this daily race of life, I have become tired and exhausted of living a dual life. One face of my life is for the external world where I have to look firm, composed and aggressive towards my ambitions. But there is one more side to it, I realized I have one more version of myself.
The other version is afraid, sad, childish and submissive. He doesn’t want to achieve more and be contesting forever. Rather he wants to achieve less and die in peace. He never wanted to grow old because he knew that in the competition of life, his ambitions will beat his soul by a fair distance
I wrote the below lines (please forgive if this is a bit crude because I was just in flow of writing my emotions) and posted here to see if there are people like me who have forced their inner Niraj to a corner from where he can’t come out.
What was better, childhood full of purity and energy or the current life where in the quest of achieving never ending desires, I am completely exhausted
“Apne Khoye hue bachpan ko dhoond raha hu main,
Zindagi ki daud me khud ki jagah dhoond raha hu main
Mere dil ne Sapne dekhe the bachpan ki raato me
Un khoye hue sapno ko aaj dhoond raha hu main
Kabhi main Shayar tha, toh kabhi tha main khiladi,
Kabhi main neta tha, toh tha kabhi pagal anadi,
Befikr thi zindagi meri, bus dil me ek pagalpan tha
Apne is pagal dil ki muskan dhoond raha hu main
Kabhi muskura ke na jee Saka, us zindagi ko dhoond raha hu main,
Aapne aasuon ke gehraiyo me, bachpan ki muskan dhoond raha hu main
Badi kashmakash hai is dil me aaj wajood ko le kar
Apni maa ki nam aankhon me, uske khoye bete ko dhoond raha hu main
Thak gaya hu jee kar ab, maula tujhse sajde ki wajah dhoond raha hu main
Happy writing!!! Stay Blessed!!
Much love
Great post. Absolutely love it.
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Thank you 😊😊
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You’re welcome 😊
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You write well in hindi. Nicely expressed.
I feel, Searching is good. That too if you are searching yourself. It means you are on the right path.
There is time for everything. I believe , everything happens at the right time.
I wish you all the best in your quest of seeking whatever you are seeking. ‘You get what you seek!’
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Shukriya 😊😊😊
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Hello. I’ve nominated you for mystery blogger award. https://maveriksjourney.wordpress.com/2018/05/04/how-i-am-healing/
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ढूंढ रहे हैं हम उस मासूम बचपन को
अगवा कर जिसे
इस तेज़ रफ़्तार से भागती दुनिया ने
किया कैद किसी अंधेरी कालकोठरी में
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We would be perfect collab partners. I told you 😀😀. Amazing
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You never told me that 😂😂
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Okay !!!!!! Really!!!!
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Nice post.
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Thank you 😊😊
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You are welcome.
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Hi, found you on First Friday. Nice to meet you!
This is something I imagine a lot of people can relate to. As you get older, most have to face situations they feel uncomfortable with and you have to put on a facade and pretend to be a person you are not. It wears you down. If you spend too long outside yourself, it is easy to forget who you really are.
Very nicely written, I love the way you have included snippets from another language. It is wonderful to see a personal touch. Nicely voiced. Thanks for sharing!
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Thank you very much. It means a lot to receive an appreciation from you. Thanks again
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Heya! I’ve nominated you for the 3 Day Quote Challenge.
I hope you’ll participate in it.
Share your favourite quotes ,each for one day with your views why you love them.
https://desaiaqsa.wordpress.com/2018/05/05/3-day-quote-challenge-day1/
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Oh thank you very much I would.
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Hey!
I just nominated you for the Sunshine Blogger Award.
Hope you’ll check it out 💜
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Thank you very much 🙂
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This was lovely!
Also, I just nominated you for the Sunshine Blogger Award. I hope you’ll check it out 💜
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Hey thanks so much. I would surely 😊😊
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I know how you feel. Its hard to be everything for everyone when we are all a bit lost. Image of one and Image of the hidden one.
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Absolutely. Its only when you give time to yourself then you realise that there is inner you who wants to talk to you 😊
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True. I like the way you think. I like your post on your Mom. I look forward to reading your posts. Kind regards from Kavitha in South Africa.
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Thank you. Yeah coz my mom was my dad also once he left us to heaven 😔
Gratitude. Namaste from Niraj in India
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